Dear Diary,

Oh, the time I have spent away from Bravenet has extended to almost a month! I am regretful and sorry for the absence: the power of laziness! I will have to post more often from now on. I have decided to change the theme of my blog website as well. I will include as well as Mood and Weather, I will cross out family and use Music. I have decided music often describes my moods as well, so I may often not enter a "Mood" in my "Mood" column.

A new trimester has started in school and I have decided to start anew and fresh. I will become more focused with my schoolwork and try to act as a better person, similar to a New Year's Resolution, but instead a Trimester Resolution.

I think I speak for every Christian to say I am excited for Christmas! We have had deep snow in our backyards for the past few days, and I even expected a snow day. I do not know if I have told you, but as a birthday and early Christmas present, my grandmother allowed me to have a new laptop computer, a white MacBook, the new Leopard operating system. New applications, new format; the whole outcome was a wonderful choice.

The friend situation with Louisa has been stressful. I have tried to ignore her, but she still has not noticed the resent and anger toward her. I ask myself often: Is she that oblivious? But in the recent past, I have noticed she stares and waits for a greeting from me. I do not want to hurt her, in any way. But I feel as my friendship has weakened with her, her close friends such as Claire have noticed and our relationship has weakened. I plan to discuss the issue with Claire. Another friend, my close friend Elizabeth, has drifted away from me. We used to email each other all the time, and now she does not email me back. She acts awkward around me when she is either alone with me or not with Katherine.

A new friend situation has come up. Ashley, one of my best friends, has started to turn toward another friend of mine and hers for advice and entertainment. I feel resented and ignored. I try to work out the situation with her, and each time she seems sorry and apologizes and we make up. But she continually repeats the same actions and acts as if she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I feel hurt. My friend Mary, the one who Ashley has turned to, has decided she will talk to Ashley for me. I hope the situation we are in won't last as long as the Louisa one has.

I wish I could solve all these problems, but I know Louisa and I will never be friends again. Ashley and I will most likely make up, and as the years pass, I hope Elizabeth and I will not be awkward around each other.

Time is the best remedy for the moment. I must wait, my least favorite activity, for Mary to talk to Ashley and wait to discuss with Claire and Elizabeth.

I WILL write soon, I promise!

~Meg/Horselvr1188