Dear Diary,
Now that it's Winter Break and all, there have been many things on my mind. Mostly concerning, yes ladies and gentleman, relationships. What a surprise, right?
This past year has been difficult. I thought 2008 was hard, but 2009 hasn't been much better. My workload at school hasn't even been the most difficult problem; I'm coming out of the first semester with all A's, which I'm proud of. But again, that hasn't been the difficult problem in my life right now.
It's more about emotional issues. Since my parents were separated, I hadn't even thought of the possibility of them dating anytime soon. However, I was wrong. I know that it's human nature to date and I should want my parents to be happy. I do. It's just hard to see them date other people. It's a little uncomfortable for me, and I hate discussing it with them. It's something that I'm going to have to live with, though.
My friends have always talked about how much they don't like or hate their dad's girlfriends, mom's boyfriends, and step parents. Therefore, I don't think I'll like either one of my parents' couples. I don't expect to, and frankly, I don't think I'll want to either. I'm trying to keep an open mind, though, and hopefully I'll get used to the idea eventually. That's all I can ask for right now.
The other issue on relationships is my own. This is embarrassing to even talk about, even on my own personal blog, but I've only had one boyfriend. It lasted for a while, but it was superficial at best. The only times we ever spent together were at camp, and it didn't end very amicably. Besides that, I haven't had a boyfriend. I want one badly. I want someone to spend time with besides my friends. That may sound a bit selfish but doesn't everyone feel that way? Those who are happy being single, I don't know how they do it. I'm trying to focus on myself right now. It'll happen when it happens, I guess. We'll have to wait and see.
On a happier note, Christmas is in three days! Starting from November all the way through January 1st, it is my favorite time of year. My birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's... the spirit and joy is palpable everywhere! I love spending time with my family, enjoying the break from school and seeing the looks on everyone's faces when they open my gifts! I can't wait.
As for you fellow blog readers, what are your plans for Christmas? The day after Christmas I'm going to visit my grandparents in Ohio. For now, I'm staying at my dad's house until Christmas morning and then after opening presents and spending the first part of the morning with him, I'm going straight to my mom's house. It's an exciting time of year.
I hope you all enjoy it!
It looks like I can no longer embed YouTube videos, but just to finish them off, I'll give you the link of two YouTube videos since my last post didn't include one. Enjoy!
This first one I had to switch the audio due to copyright claims. It used to have The Seeker by the Who and Hound Dog by Elvis Presley, but now it has a different song pertaining to dogs. Although there is a period where there is no audio and only video, I hope you enjoy it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3BKaz2K17wk
This is a Horse Video Contest I had created. There is a video response of the contest results if you can't wait and wish to see it, or you can wait until I post the video! Enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zjfa4idKGZc
~Meg/GilmoreGirl1188
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